crazy world

It had been very scary and beyond crazy to watch what happen in Ferguson, MO. I could not believe my eyes what was going on. Wow. I was wondering how people felt when all of this happen. Ferguson will never be the same because ya'll crazy folks just destroying the city. It will never be same. #RIPFERGUSON. I don't mean to sound very insensitive in my post but whatever you doing in Ferguson will not bring Mike Brown back. I know all you want is justice but is it the right way?  The same situation happen few years ago with Trayvon Martin. Did it bring him back? Is Justice served? All we have to do is move on and let God handle the rest. Don't blame God for what happen.

For my hearing friends on here: I will translation my ASL to English of what I'm saying. I'm not leaving you out... It is a long story & I talked too much. Lol

The whole world gone absolutely crazy. It is so annoying and this really need to put an end to it. It is not the right way to do it. You only making the situation even worse. You either end up dead or spend jail time. Why all the extra drama? Why all the hate? All we need to do is to voice our concern and let your voice be heard. Keep fighting until they give up.

Sorry about the sound on the background. Try your best to ignored it.


I am sitting here and wondering. The world really need to stop. We need to make a change. Ever since situation like this, we get so obsessed about riot, abused, murder, killing, damaaged, bombing, what the purpose of doing that? What for? It is not necessary to damage property which it had nothing to do with supr...eme court make decision about brown's case. Why you do thay? Why? I feel that world is so mess up and gone completely crazy. People out there really don't care. All you have to do is watch your back. WATCH YOUR BACK. You will never know what cop will do. A cop shot an innocence person and got away with it. Just be careful and watch your back. You don't know what will happen tomorrow or near future. You just don't know. You might get killed tomorrow by stupid cop or stupid people. If a cop know he did wrong even though he had not admitted it. God will take care of it. God is the only person who know what you are doing. You think God is not watching you. Think again! Think again! God will find a way to take care of it. We can't do nothing about it just move on. Grief will always bother you no matter what but we have to move on. I wish the world have peace without any problem. I'm so tired of this tragedy riot. It is 2014, come on... COME ON.. That situation will never disappear. We will still cause any silly riot, killing each other. God did not teach us to kill people. God taught us to love each other. Love each other no matter what. That is the devil teaching us to HATE each other. & killing each other. That is the devil's work, not god's work. God did not command you to kill that person.. that is the devil's work. My wish the world become so peaceful. Can we get along? Can we at least try get along? Why we have to live in the past? Why? HELLO, IT IS 2014. Do we want to continue the situation in 3000? Silly. It is really silly. I hope someone will Chang the America system. It really need to upgrade. It is making the world gone crazy and they panicked to do stupid & ridiculous. It is time to put stop to it. When I look at it.it is really silly. I hope I will see change but I highly doubt it. That is all I have to say.

My lost baggage happened again In ATL

You know what!!!! I am facking furious with Greyhound bus. I can't let this keep stressing me. It really get so tiresome and frustrating . Have you ever feeling like you want to sue the whole Greyhound bus for not doing their job. So why are bag keep getting lost? Are they being professional for doing their job? Do you really want to get paid? I didn't paid my ticket for you to do a lousy job at it. If you want money, be professional about it. Don't overlook the bag ticket and put it on the wrong bus.


This lady scared this heck outta of me. She was saying this bus is going to Atlanta, Ga. I was like, I just came from ATL and on my way back to Jackson, MS. We all was puzzled as heck. I was like what is the lady talking about? They better not take my bag out in North Carolina. This lady is about to get cuss for real.

I wouldn't say I love riding Greyhound bus but it is the cheapest,tho. Mane, this is second time I lost my bag in Atlanta, Ga in the same place as two years ago. Why are they aint doing their job? Is it your job to lose my bag every time I bring my bag to you? At first, I have it in handling in yellow tag but I decided to carry it myself because I lost my trust in it. Mane, I couldn't believe they lost my bag. How could they? How? I was so pissed off  because I did not appreciate it. The last time, they lost my bag, I waited 7 months Until Greyhound discover my bag. & 7 whole damn months. Who does that? huh,

They could have given me a two free ride trip or free vacation trip along with free food meal. It is frustrated moment. Like an example, flight was being delayed for more than 5 hrs, they give us discount on the next flight or half a price. Cool idea but greyhound bus are greedy.. Greedy.

I am considering not riding greyhound bus anymore because I am tired of this mess. Be professional about it, then I will not be tired and frustrated about it. Ugh. I hope they find my bag for as soon as possible. I do not want to wait another 7 months for my bag or they better give me a free ticket. shoot.

The Smurfes used to be my favorite childhood television show. I don't care if I am a big woman and I will still watch them no matter what. The sad part is that I have not seen the movie yet.. I am waiting for it to come out on RedBox. lol Who is my favorite character in Smurf is Smurfette. She is the sexiest girl but she need a female friends. It will be nice for her to have couple of friends. I have a lot of favorite childhood cartoons show such as Tom & Jerry, Popeye, The Road Runner, Donald Duck, and the list can go along. I will watch with my future children one day. Just love it.

“Pull your pants up”

I came across to see this on Facebook and this had me laughing but it was true.  No one does not want to see your drawer so pull it up. It is not cute to dressing like that and it make you look like you walking like penguin. No offend guy, it is  the truth. Who are  you trying impress me? I know you ain't trying to impress me. I would have cross you out. 

We only We seen the men “Pull your pants up” version.. I like this one much better.  here is the woman version, ” Pull your pants up unless you’re a chick.” I understand that men like it but I don’t want to see your crack so get a better size or wear a belt and have some respect. Especially I don't want anyone to see my crack. I make sure my pant is up before I get up or sit down.  I used to be one of those chick back in the day. I didn't even know my crack were showing until someone told me so I start wearing a belt. It is totally embarrassed. 

Female 10 Commandments

1.   Thou Shall always...... provide the cheeks when called to do so.


2.   Thou Shall not speak if thy "dose" not know what one talks about.


3.   Thou Shall cook at least four times a week


4.   Thou Shall always wear heels when we go out.


5.   Thou Shall be quiet during football and basketball season.


6.   Thou Shall mind their own business. 


7.   Thou Shall not learn to drive for not in the kitchen. 


8.   Thou Shall not criticize us for playing video games. 


9.   Thou Shall not talk back or you will be forced to "EAT THE CAKES."


10.  Thou Shall have a job. 


I got this post form my good friend Mr. Greeneyez AKA AP. Gotta give him credit because he is speaking the TRUTH...<------- SOME. lol. 

A Day of Remembering on 9/11, Not Forgetting

Ten years ago from this day 9/11, we couldn't believed my own eyes of what happen. From that day, that moment, I couldn't understand what was happening. Everything was on my mind and couldn't focus. I remembered I was a 12th grader pay attention in class at Miss SD and I didn't even know anything about it until someone mention me about it and lead me to television. It was very shocking and speechless. I couldn't believe How could someone be that evil to crash a plane through a TWIN TOWER. I couldn't imagine it. It just a shocking in totally disbelief. It is like my mind couldn't function. A question always appear in my mind, what if that happen to me? I just saw 9/11 Tribute Anniversary today and it is so heartbroken to watch. I admired Firefighter who give their all and struggle to save lives through collapse building. Those 343 Firefighter died a great HERO. More than a thousand of people died at World Trade Center. May God Rest Their Soul. My love goes out to those who lost their loved ones.

I would love to take a trip to visit to visit the World Trade Center site that feature two fountains in the Twin Towers' footprints. When I look it, it is beautiful.

A prayer for the East Coast

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I am  praying for the families, friends, and people who live on the east coast. I just hope all my families, friends, and people are safe. The east coast just had a minor earthquake couple day ago before Hurricane Irene was on their way up north. Something ain't right. Like Seriously.I just pray that Hurricane Irene will play nice with the east coast. Some people had lost their darn mind because surfers want to go to beach to surf during the big storm. A 22 years old surfer died in the big storm and the rescue had to pulled him out of the beach. May God rest his soul. Some people are extremely excited to see Hurricane Irene passing by the street. <---- Crazy. 

I kinda lost myself for a while because I thought today was the 28th and I went to Walgreen to check out the new product which is coming out on that day and My babies didn't came on. I meant the Saints game. I finally realized today was the 27th, not 28th. I was like, what in the world going on with me... Irene was on my mind all damn day since 5 am and had me worrying about my people on the east coast. I really need to mediate myself. LIKE SERIOUSLY. 

I always wondering why Hurricanes always come when it is time for the kids to go back to school? Why can't they come back at a better time? Yea, it is Hurricane seasons from July to November. We usually don't get Hurricane in July but August is a start. 

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NFL is finally BACK...

I am so damn excited that NFL football season is finally back. Damn these lockout. They have gone way too long and I have enough of these NBA. It is time to bring my babies back. lol. I was very disappoint not to see all of the game last week of the preseason. They didn't show all of the game that I WANT to see. I am very disappoint to see Reggie Bush had to play for another team. I am going to miss him. I will support him but sure ain't rooting for Miami. lol.. Goooo Saints.... Who are you rooting for this year? I am in badwagon of another team so Don't hate. ha. I am not going spill my juicy detail out that yet but you can sure always figure it out. Saints will always be my babies. MY BABIES. I am waiting for Raiders vs Saints because my boobear and I be fighting all the time but it was cute, though. I will always be his Saints-Raiders Booboo cakes.. yea, I put the SAINTS first because you love me, boobear. lol

Happy July 4th

Happy Independence Day and enjoy your time on this special day. I don't know what July 4th will bring me on that day. My boo better come up with something. lol. be safe and have fun. No drink and drive. You could save an innocent lives.

Happy Father's Day 2011

To all the handsome fathers, soon to be fathers, brothers, uncles, cousins, fosters dad, stepfathers, grandfathers, and play fathers, out there, Especially my lovely father who passed away two years ago, I wish you a Happy Father's Day. This day should be very special and make it memorable for them. This is a day to honor all men who have acted as a father figure in their life and can pass that tradition along with their son.Thank your dad for bringing you into this world. You are his reason for being in this world. If it wasn't for your father, you will not be here.

My father had not been in my life since I was born. I don't blame my father for not being there in my life, not at all. I have seen my father from time to time as I was growing up though. I am really okay with that. In deep in his heart, he knows I will always be his babygirl. I love my father no matter what. We might not have a great father/daughter bond but I still love him & I forgave him. He will always be my father no matter what. I accepted him back in my life since I was 24 years old but really, he was already in my life since he bought me into this world and Im so grateful for that. Another reason he already in my life because I visited my father's side of the family ALOT when I was a little girl. It really puzzled me why my mother stop me from visited there. Anyway, I was so devastated when my father passed away in 2009.  He was a good dad and he had not forgot about me. He always make sure I have money or anything that I need. He can't stand his baby girl being broke. "She gotta have money in her pocket." Daddy, Happy Father's Day even though u are not here but I know you are here in spirit. I thank you for bringing me into this world. If it wasn't for you, I WILL NOT be here.  I love you, daddy.

NBA Final Championship 2001::Dallas Mavericks

It is hard to believe that Dallas Mavericks won the NBA Final Championship of 2011. My prediction is so wrong and I sworn in my gut that  Miami Heat will win this game for sure. They surely don't want the game and they kinda of gave up. Miami Heat play a great game and I enjoying my time watching the game and beefing with my girlfriend which she does not know shit about basketball. It was kinda of fun when she questionnarie me about basketbal. I think it was cute. ha. I want to Congratulation Dallas Mavericks for wining this championship this year. They play hard to win this championship and they deserve it. Mavericks put all their heart in this game and they show it all. Did Miami Heat did the same thing, no, I just don't see it at all. Where is the spirit and the fire? it just died when Dallas Mavericks keep beating their ass on the court on Game series 4 and I thought Miami heat will win this game at their home game. What the hell just happen? Oh well, Miami Heat's fan started to leave the stadium which it is really sad.

Take the Mask Off, Tiffany

I never thought this was New York aka Tiffany Pollard. I was shocked to see a natural picture of her. My gosh, She is so damn beautiful. I mean no damn homo. I am speaking what is on my mind. I have seen a picture of her but I didn't even know it was her. I thought it was just a random infamous picture of natural sisters. I read some blog about famous natural sister as I was scrolling down the page, I was like, SHUT UP AND WHAT THE HELL! It can't be her. No Way. She is gorgeous. She really did fool me. I showed it to couple of my friends and she didn't even know who she was until I told her. They were shocked as HELL. She was fooling everyone by putting extra mask to hide herself. Oh wow, She really does not need all that extra package to look that good. She already look good before she put those extra mask on. She is more beautiful the way she is.

She is more prettier when she was natural but with a lot of change I see in her, she is still pretty. I browsing around her picture and I have found couple of picture of her which I think it is way too much. All of them extra package is not that cute.

Cougar is not my name.

I will not be part of a Cougar category. That's so not me. I don't want to be someone's grandma, aunts, or cousins. That will not be me at all. I have so much respect for young cute guys. I would hook him up with my nieces or cousins who are in the same age as him. That is what I would have done. These days, some of these cougars have done lost their mind but that is their preference and their want. I am not feeling any of this. I have a lot of 20 years and up  try to holla at me. They are just a young little innocent baby. They tend to get mad when I said that. That is how I feel. Boys these day don't give a flying fuck about age but I sure do. We can be friends but we will not cross that boundaries. That will never happen. Why can't young guy find someone like their age? Today's society is so fuck up right now. Younger guy is going out for older women and older guy is going out for younger women. Oh well, fuck that category. Cougar is not my fucking name. I won't label myself a cougar.

If you are somewhere between 19 to 24, you are just a cute young baby to me. I am  old enough to be  your cousins, aunts, or grandma. I won't scoop my standard that low for that. Baby, you have a whole life ahead of you, why would you want to mess with a grown women?  Mane, you know what irk the hell out of me. "Stereotype of younger guy love older women." I am getting tired of hearing that shyt. It is kinda of annoying. Sex is the only reason why he want to be with older women. Age is nothing but a number but a jail is a place for you. Shit, it sure does bother me as well. My ass is not going to sit in jail for that shyt. lol. I  can't really say age is nothing but a number unless I don't give a fuck.

This 22  years old dude want me to be his sexy cougar standing next beside him with his arm around him to show off to the world. Baby, I won't  be your sexy cougar, find another sexy cougar. He is so damn crazy.

 This 21-year old rapper/actor Romeo was recently spotted smootching with 60 year old Kirstie Alley! This is really wowed me. I can't imagine that. I am not here to judge but wow. That is beyond crazy.

NBA Final Championship 2011: Heat or Mavs

NBA Finals Championship of 2011 is just around the corner. You know I am not rooting for Dallas Mavericks. I have been L.A. Lakers fans for years but Miami Heat, too. Miami Heat got this championship this year. One thing I miss the most is Derek Rose playing on the court. I see you, soon, baby. He is the beast in the game and sure is a HOTTIE. If you were a team of heat, I will most def. watch you all the way, baby. loling with my crazy self.

So who do you think will win the championship this year? So Miami is leading the series game 2-1

Is it Miami Heat? 

 Or

Is it Dallas Mavericks?

"I've found myself" quote by Doro

I love my girl's anecdote. She grown up to be a beautiful mother and she  is beautiful on the inside as well on the outside. Im so glad to have her as my true friend. She is the only girl I can talk to. I want to thank you for being such a great friend to me and I love you.

"I'm not ashamed to say that Ive outgrown certain people in my life because at some point you have to take the time to realize who your real friends are.. there comes a time in life when you have to put immature things behind you because it will only hinder you from succeeding. let go of all the baggage and the drama and surround yourself with positive people. its like a breath of fresh air when you're secure in your own skin and you know exactly how you want your life to be. Its called finding yourself and I'm glad to say that I have definitely been found." --- Doro W.

My personal stories:

I definitely can related what is going on with my life on her anecdote. I have been experience of going through fake friend with too much baggage that was affecting my life since I have graduated Gallaudet U. I just started to act funny immediately because people focus on me too much and worry about my life way too much. At the same time, I felt hurt but I let my pain heal by itself. I feel that they are taking control of my life and trying to live my life the way they want to. Hey, Hey, Hey, Hey, it is my life and let me taste my own medicine of what life is about. I have decided to cut couple of people out of my life with less drama. One of my friends quote, "The less friends you have, the better your life will be." So I can do me and do what I want in my life. You can advice me but you can't judge so it is better for you to keep your judgment to yourself. You have no right to be in that position except GOD. After I flushed all those fake friends down the drain, I felt so much better. No pressure on my plate to deal with so much drama. From there, I feel so much free. Once you go through the life you experience, you will understand it much better.

Happy Mother's day 2011

To all of the beautiuful mothers, soon to be, sisters, aunts, cousins, fosters, play mothers, and any mothers out there, I wish you a Happy Mother's Day. You all have a very blessed day. Go ahead and treat your mother like a queen. never ever take someone you love the most for granted. She had been there for you for many time so be thankful for that. Love her no matter what situation it is. They are the one who carried you for 9 months of pain, raised you to be a better person. Thank her for bringing you into this world.

My mammie, I want to say that I love her so much. It it wasn't for her, I WILL NOT be here. I'm so glad that she is my mother because she is very unique. I admired her strengths and everything. She gave her all to raised three of us without our fathers in our lives. She worked so hard to put food on the table and make sure we have roofed over our head. She is a great mother and she made me to become a better person. I am proud to have her as my deaf mother. Momma, I LOVE YOU AND HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY. I am started to miss my mama so much because I am so far far away from her. She knows in her heart that I miss her, too.

Jumping the Broom is a must

I gotta see this movie called "Jumping The Broom.” coming out on May 6th. It is a must to see. I think this movie is going to be soo gooood. It will have my favorite man in the show: Mr. Pooch Hall. I can't wait to see him. The main problem is that I won't be able to hear everything of what each character saying and it is going to make it very hard for me to depend on my hearing throughout the movie. I'm going to miss out a lot when I am planning to watch it at the movie theater. You already know that movie theater does not provide closed captioned for disability people. I really don't care about that but I got to see this movie. I don't want to be the last person to watch this movie. Deaf people will always be the last person to see this movie. Six months later, hearing folks always make a comment and say,“Damn, you are so late, this movie came out like six months ago.” They got to understand that no closed captioned was not available. Anyway, I can't wait to see this movie and I don't want to hear no stories of the movies.

Greyhound Bus I hate

Don't you hate riding Greyhound Buses? Don't you hate riding longest hours and days to get where you want to go. The prices are so cheap but SHIT, Greyhound buses ain't worth it. I know I definitely do hate it very much. I tend to take Greyhound buses to Washington, DC, Arizona, North Carolina, Florida, and etc. That was the longest trip that I have ever experience and very uncomfortable when you try to sleep. they stopped too much just to waste time. I hate buses being delayed or have to wait 3 or 4 hours for your bus to leave at certain time. I hate riding Greyhound buses when I go to places to places. Greyhound buses make me sick to my stomach but I do not have any choice. I would love to fly but buying a ticket off the airport or online are RIP OFF. They charged too much for a ticket and they want more money for luggage. What more do they want? The only reason why I fly southwest  because they re the cheapest. I didn't take the flight because they didn't have available day for me to leave on that particular day and time and it cost way too much for last minute trip.  I had to take my damn stinky ass to get a bus ticket to get to where I am going. The buses in Baton Rouge, La you, suck big time. I was running an hour late to go to Florida. There were a lot of people lining up to head to Fla and they didn't have the second bus available. We have to wait for hour and half to have a  available bus driver to leave to Fla. I was so damn pissed off. I never took a bus head to Baton Rouge, LA to get to Fla. I always sit in the front of the bus so I know where I am going . Greyhound bus can be uncomfortable if you are going for a long trip.

Happy Easter's Day 2011

Those who celebrate Easter's Day, Happy Easter Day and enjoy your special day. What I love about Easter is seeing a beautiful smile on a child's face when they hunt eggs. They make my day. Beautiful smile on a child's face is the most important.Not just celebrated Easter, Celebrate Jesus Christ's resurrection from the dead, is most important holiday.

My Blog MISSED Me So Much

Hey Everyone, 

I most definitely miss writing blog everyday because I have been away too long. I need to get back writing blog. It seems like I am taking a vacation for a month. I'm out of town that is why my blog had not been very active. I'm having a great time in Va but really, I was at Fla for couple of days. Sexi Shea Bear will be back soon. I have been on a lot of stress during my mini trip. I am trying to sorta my feeling out and deal with it but on another note, I am having fun in Va. I just wish thing were totally different and it was not what I expected. I will most definitely will be all right. I really need a laptop so I can type my blog anywhere on my free time when I am bored.

Anyway, If I don't make it by Easter time, Happy Easter's Day and have a great day. I miss you