Valentine's Day is approaching soon.

Valentine's Day is around the corner. Valentine’s Day is a special holiday that celebrated on February 14. It is the traditional day which lovers express their love for each other; sending Valentine’s cards, or offering candy. Valentine does not have to be sex. it is about show how much you love that person. To give my two cent worth, I really HATE Valentine's Day when you don't have a partner to share with. I do have a  partner but he will not be available to be here to share my valentine with and I know it feel sucks. I know he is out there thinking of me on this special day. No one dare to have a perfect day to have a perfect Valentine's Day. Oh well, I am going to make the best of it on Valentine's Day. Just wondering what Valentine's Day of 2011 will bring me. I hope it will bring my baby. lol

I wish I have the power to cross Valentine's Day off the calendar? That is totally out of option. We all have to deal with Valentine's Day whether you are single or in relationship.

Dear Cupid,

                 

                  I love my baby with all my heart but he is not here with me. I really miss him so much. Will  you, cupid, mind to shoot an arrow on him just to bring him to me? I am so desperate to be with him on Valentine's Day? Thank you so much and I really appreciate it. 

Much love, 

Sexi Shea Bear 

February will be here very sooner. I just wish we can skip February because it is not my favorite month to go through. I am going to celebrate Black History Month.

At 74 rocking real good. My inspiration: Mrs.Ernestine Shepherd.

Mrs. Ernestine Shepherd is my inspiration and she totally amazed me all the time. She is the most beautiful women I ever seen. It is so astonishing to see that she got a body like a 21 years old at 74 years young. Yea, I said 74 years old. When I saw her on Monique Show on Bet, It shocked my eyes to see how amazing and so brave she is. She looks AMAZING. I truly believe that at any age is just number but you can still have a body like that if you set your mind to.

This amazing women who is the Guinness Book of World Records' oldest female bodybuilder runs 80 miles a week, benches presses 150  and she does all that.Who can do so much better than her? NO ONE. She is HISTORY.  At the age 56, she started to working out at the gym after her sister passed away and dedicated her life to her own health ever since. She got it going real good. Mrs. Ernestine, You go ahead with your badd self. Ms. Ernestine. If she can work that body good, you can do it. She ain't afraid to show what she got. She is my inspiration and she make me wanna say, YES, I CAN DO IT AND I'M GOING DO IT. Lolz. Mane, She is inspiration to all women. 

"She is a unique figure in the world of fitness."

I always thinking about going to the gym to lift those weight which I miss very much but costly too much at the fitness center. I really need to tone it up real bad. I miss hitting the gym. I don't think I never ever will have a body like Ernestine, but I am working on it!" All I want my body to look sculpture and tone good. Dang, I can' t do i t like her.. Getting up at 3am to work out, Sorry, sister, I definitely need my beauty sleep but you SURE do look AMAZING.

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Her motto is: ‘Determined, Dedicated and Disciplined

Mane, there is no damn excuse for us to be  so lazy  at all and she sure did put us in SHAME and including men, too. Maybe some of us don't feel shame but I sure do. If you set your mind to, u will get the best result at the end. So don't give up and keep working out. I really need to start working on that. I am going to STOP making excuse and Let me hit the gym.. I need to blown up her picture and post it on my wall so that will keep me motivated when I can look up to her.

I have a dream of establish my own big fitness or Recreation center along with 6 different aerobic class, basketball gym, weight room, pool, spa, 20 miles park center, and etc.

RIP LIMEWIRE. You will be missed.

I'm so pissed off  when I found out that LimeWire download site has officially shut down last year. I had nowhere to turn to. I have been using LimeWire software since 2000. I am very disappointment to see the company to go. LimeWire will be missed. RIP LimeWire. Anyway, I am afraid to download other music site such as frostwire, Vuze, Rapidshare and etc because it might cause a virus on my computer Limewire never cause any virus on my computer but if it did, Norton AntiVirsus will stop them from download. I don't buy music CD from the store anymore because it is just waste of money. I just don't understand how people can afford to buy music since there is no way to download music.  Some of the song on the CD might not be my favorite. I rather download song that I like on my CD or ipod. If LimeWire is officially dead, why not shut down other music software website which does not make any sense at all,. Have the government check other site that download music, too? I am don't think I am going to like this Frostwire software. Oh well, I guess I will have to deal with it but I know I am not going to buy any CD except Trey Songz, I gotta get that CD. it is a MUST. lol

What does men want when they like what they see?

I have been sitting in my room and wondering why men don't pay much attention to me. Is it that I look too mean every time I go out. I just can't help the look of facial expression on my face.  I know that I am attractive and I get many compliments from guy. I APPRECIATE THAT but don't let my picture FOOL you! I am not those other women who show off their skin way too much just to get men's attention. I am cute and innocent in the face and it is gonna stay that way. I am not going to change my picture just because every man want to see. You can get the stepping if you don' t like it. To be perfectly honest,  I may not be the best looking  women in the world that every man want. Every man want the perfect women and that goes the same thing as for those women who want the the perfect man. I don't have time to be perfect and all that. I don't pretend or  trying to be someone that I am not because I am very good at being me. I LOVE me and I AM me. Everybody ain't perfect.  I don't need to add the extra package to look extremely sexy.  Hey, I am very picky whatever come to men. Before, I dislike dating short guy or date man who have children but I have change that quality in a man. I made some of my list very flexible. 

I considering myself to be god fearing women, goal orientated, college educated,  very smart, outgoing, have some sense of humor, intelligence, got a lot of respect for myself, and carry myself pretty well.  When it come to men, I may be a little bitchy......Depend how you talk to me, you will get what it coming to you. I have dismissed a lot of guy who were being arrogant pervert toward me. I don't have time for that shyt. With that being said, I don't have a job but I am hunting for a job these day. I am in my 30's without any children which I would love to have some of my own.  I don't smoke nor drink.. I don't have any tat on me. I like the way I am  and who I am. If you don't like any of the description that I describe, you can get the stepping. -----> that seem to be my favorite line. lolz.

Every guy I have talk to is not on the same page as I am. I don't have time just to be their friends when they tried to get in my pants or try to holler whenever they want to holler. That is ain't gonna work with me. I ain't gonna to be your fuck friend. THAT IS FOR SURE. I am type of women that is looking for long term relationship and I have being single way way too long. Women these day just don't care anymore and let these men led these women on. To me, it is crazy. 

Some men always say that they want a good women. Once they found a good women, they don't want one. Ladies, It is not you. It is their preference and quality of what they wanted in a women. Don't ever change change yourself because he didn't find what he is looking for. Oh well, they are really missing out a lot. Guys just can't handle a good women when they see one. We are just good women with good morals and a lot of respect & we are just too good for them. 

Pretty odd that I am not the kind of ladies that be looking for a thug, hustler, alcoholic, smoke weed every damn day,  and etc but somehow I fell in love with one of the guy who is a thug. He had a lot of good in him. I mean a lot..