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Friday, April 8, 2011

Happy Easter's Day 2011


Those who celebrate Easter's Day, Happy Easter Day and enjoy your special day. What I love about Easter is seeing a beautiful smile on a child's face when they hunt eggs. They make my day. Beautiful smile on a child's face is the most important.Not just celebrated Easter, Celebrate Jesus Christ's resurrection from the dead, is most important holiday.

My Blog MISSED Me So Much

Hey Everyone, 

I most definitely miss writing blog everyday because I have been away too long. I need to get back writing blog. It seems like I am taking a vacation for a month. I'm out of town that is why my blog had not been very active. I'm having a great time in Va but really, I was at Fla for couple of days. Sexi Shea Bear will be back soon. I have been on a lot of stress during my mini trip. I am trying to sorta my feeling out and deal with it but on another note, I am having fun in Va. I just wish thing were totally different and it was not what I expected. I will most definitely will be all right. I really need a laptop so I can type my blog anywhere on my free time when I am bored.

Anyway, If I don't make it by Easter time, Happy Easter's Day and have a great day. I miss you

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Is it LOVE OR LUST?

Since I have been with him for almost three years but never have close relationship because we lived too damn far. I have been very loyalty and faithful since we have been in relationship. It is time to take this love action into consideration. We have been on and off on this long distance relationship and it is killing us as well. Long Distance Relationship can be a damn BITCH but all it takes to have STRONG faith and trust. If you don't have that, it won't work. oh well, I so much hate it very much. We need to spend more time together and take it from there. I need to use my judgment to find out what page I am on. I really want him to be on the same page as I am. All I gotta do is be a FBI investigator on him. Do he loves me just the same as I love him? Or Is it just sex? Will a guy tell you the truth that he want love from you than lust? or Would he just lie to get what he want?  I rather have a conversation in person instead of emailing or texting. When I am with him, I don't feel lust from him, I feel so in love with him. Love and lust can be so confusing part of the relationship. We have been meeting each other six time in three years. At first, I thought it was friend with benefits thing but it lead to more than just friend with benefits.I need to take this situation into action instead of wasting time. I know the answer to myself after I read it. Oh well, it is either good or bad, I am good.

I was browsing through website of Love and Lust and it got me mind blogging hard throughout the website.

Here is a definition of Love and Lust:

* If you still feel attracted when your lust is satisfied, then it's love. Most people confuse lust with love; the difference is that while lust is self-serving love is unlimited and unselfish..


Is it lust, or what?
So how can you tell the difference between lust and love? Here are a few tips to help you sort things out.
 
It's lust if:


    * You're totally focused on her looks and body
    * Even before you know her name, you're already fantasizing about what she looks like naked and what it would be like to have sex with her.
    * You don't care about anything she has to say
    * It wouldn't make a difference to you if you never had a conversation with her. Furthermore, you don't bother to return her calls promptly and you can easily go for days without talking to her -- until you get horny again.
    * You only want to be with her to have sex
    * You make excuses not to spend time with her, except for sex. And if she asks you for a favor, you tell her you're too busy. But if you have to be with her and not have sex, she gets on your nerves and you find yourself fantasizing about other women.
    * She's your booty call
    * After you go out trolling for tail with your buddies on Friday night, you then call her at 1 a.m. for some drunken action. Ah, the booty call.
    * You leave after sex

    * After having sex with her, you look for the easiest way to leave. No cuddling, no breakfast the next morning, just "I gotta go."




It's love, baby
It's love if:

    * You have great chemistry
    * You get lost in your conversations, and the hours pass like minutes. You're more than willing to listen to her when she talks about her day. The chemistry between you is remarkable.
    * You find her beautiful
    * Even if you catch her with no makeup on and her hair pulled back while she's unclogging a toilet, she still looks beautiful to you.
    * You want to spend time with her
    * All you want to do is to be with her, whether you're having sex or not. Even if she tells you that sex will have to wait, you don't care.
    * You see a future together
    * You experience the strange feeling that your life would be totally empty without her. You tell your friends and family that she may be The One, and you're even thinking about marrying her.
    * You introduce her to your family
    * It becomes very important to you that your parents like her, and that she gets along with everyone close to you.
    * You include her in all your plans
    * Whether you're going out with your male friends or taking your dog for a walk, you want her there with you. And if she's not there, you can't get her off your mind and sneak off to give her a quick "I miss you" phone call. Of course, you don't tell your buddies.
    * You are more romantic
    * All of a sudden you find yourself listening to cheesy romantic songs and thinking of her. You send her flowers and love notes to work and set up romantic evenings candlelit dinners at home.
    * You always take her side
    * If someone says anything even slightly disparaging about her, you immediately rise to her defense. Furthermore, in social gatherings, you always agree with her even if you disagree behind closed doors.
    * She makes you want to be a better man
    * She challenges and motivates you. She makes you happy, and you'd do anything to make her happy.
    * When it is love, you catch yourself thinking about how much fun you have with that person and when it is lust you catch yourself thinking about their body.

http://wiki.answers.com/Q/How_do_you_know_if_it_is_love_or_lust

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Mother Nature

Mother Nature have their eyes on you. lol

Mother Nature had not been very nice to Mississippi. It had been crazy for couple of days. Mother Nature bought those week of icy nightmare. The weather forecast warn us that big storm were coming that week. Do we all watch the weather forecast or listen to the radio about what happen outside before hitting the highway. No one expected what kind of weather it will be because Mississippi never receive this kind of weather often but it happen, tho. Big storm caused the road & bridge to froze. We all need to use our better judgment when we know Mother Nature is on our way. Two week ago, we had big storm coming but all of us did know what it will be like. A lot of accident had happen that adn it was tragic. Some of the car runs off the bridge, hit a pack of ice and hit a tree, traffic was slow and dozen of cars and drivers were stuck for up to five hours or more waiting to get out of the road even some of them run out of gas.  It was CRAZY when I was reading it on the news. The road and jobs should have been closed so any of this will not have happen. 
Should MDOT<Mississippi Department of Transportation> take the blame for the icy nightmare that happen that day? I will partially say it is both. the people on the road should take their decision very considering and MDOT crew should be on the job spreading more salt on the road earlier before the weather hit them. MDOT did all their best they can to prevent that from happen. They have no idea that the bridge was going to be ice over according to Hall. I would say If SOME PEOPLE just used a little common sense and stayed off these bridges none of this would have happened. Take some responsibility for your own actions!! The state is not responsible for anyone's decision to cross a bridge during winter weather. I am a little disappoint about the people have to go to work even though they knew or don't know that big storm was coming and they have to drive back home even though they live to far. Jobs should have been CLOSED. All I can say, it is Mother Nature, can't blame on them. People who out there thinking they can beat this weather. Mother Nature will always win. Can you survive thought flood, tornado,earthquake, and etc.


Monday, February 14, 2011

Friend With Benefits


In some point of our lives, we, the women may experience friend with benefits, One Night Stand, fuck buddy, fling, booty call, sex friend or whatever and we learned from it, same thing go for the guys as well. I think there is absolutely no shame in that so I went thought the same thing. No one is perfect. Here is my question that had been mind blogging for a quite while.  What does Friends With Benefits really mean to you? Everybody have different perspective of definite of FWB. Friend with benefits should be meeting about sex only & nothing more. My definition of friend with benefits involve two person having sexual relationship with no strings attached. People does not get understanding what NSA mean. All of the sudden you will hear a person said I am so in love with him or her. Your mental pause and say WTF just happen? what happen to NSA? lolz. During sex relationship, there should be no hugging, kissing, touching, holding hand, NO NOTHING. There should be no expensive dinners, no rose, hanging out, or NO NOTHING. There also should be no dating, no emotionally involved. NO NOTHING. JUST FACKING. It is all about sex and meeting your need. If it does happen, the relationship will become very complicated and you have to put end to all of it because either one of you who develop feeling WILL end up getting your feeling hurt. To continue friend with benefit, someone WILL get caught up into feeling. No question asked. It is impossible for a person not to have feeling for each other and still facking each other many time. Friend with benefits ends up one friend friends falling for the other and they will have a hard time getting that out.You just can't hoping or waiting for the other person starting feeling you as well if you already have feeling for that person two or three years. So waiting for that person to make you their partners is a waste of time so don't let your precious time to wasted on that. It won't happen but maybe to some people. You can always discuss the boundaries for both parties before you take this friend with benefit relationship further and always play it safe. Take the agreement serious.



From my personal experiences, I have experienced fling, and friends with benefits. it is not a good thing because it can ruin your friendship. I have lost my good friend over two years and there is no way you can stop your emotional for getting in the way. I couldn't do it. I was the one end up getting my feeling hurt because I let it happen. We made decision that we will not going to settle down and don't want to be in relationship. It is felt great to be in FWB but the other way around, it is not good. We facked three or four time a week, being so romantic in public, kissing, touching and feeling each other in public. I told him to stop because people are watching us. He doesn't give a damn who watching. I don't want the neighborhood to be up all in my koolaid. We were just keeping it on the low but it was hard. He keep coming to see in me public. He slept over my house a couple of day and I slept over his house. I had to call it off with him because I was feeling him more and more everyday. He tripped because he doesn't want me to be with no other man. He always asked me if I was facking with other men. We are not in relationship, so it is my choice to be with other men. He is too selfish. He got mad about it because he doesn't want me to call it off. It's my choice and I made it that way. Sometime I wondering if he was catching feeling with me because he was always saying "I miss you." I asked him a question about issue of being pregnant. From there, that was it. I couldn't put myself in those position. There is no way in hell that I am going to be dealing with a deadbeat dad. In two years later, No texting, no nothing, he found me on Tagged and email me out of the blue just want to friend with me. There is no way I am accepting him as my friend because we will be living in the past again. Now he wants another sex marathon with me. Is he out of his fucking mind? I stop talking to him because he still the same person. I flushed his friendship with me down in the drain. It was a great friendship but he decided to mess that up. Another thing, he got mad if I call this friend with benefits or just a booty call. Why would he get mad for? SMH.

So what is wrong the picture? I wouldn't call it friend with benefits. It is a bunchy of heartache.

I am in love with the person who I thought he was my fwb but he want to take it to another level. WOW. All I want it to be a fling with him, and it turn out I am falling for him even more. I never thought I will be in relationship with this dude. it is a blessing. I will never ever put myself in that position again because I don't like one bit.

here is some rules of having friend with benefits:
  • No quality time
  • NO Romance
  • No Sleepovers
  • Be Brutally honest
  • No Holding Hands
  • No calling just to say HI
  • Safe sex
  • Absolutely no pet names.
  • Set Boundaries



Lmao at this agreement!!!!!!!! This is a perfect example for Friend with Benefits Agreement. lolz.

This pre-booty call agreement (hereinafter referred to as the "Agreement") is entered into on the _____day of __________, 2008, by_______________________, between ____________and______________.


THIS AGREEMENT SHALL COVER THE FOLLOWING RULES AND PRINCIPLES:

1. No sleeping over - unless it is very good and we need to repeat it in the morning.

2. No meeting in public except for dinner or drinks before the events of the evening.

3. No calls before 9 PM - we don't have shit to talk about.

4. None of that "lovemaking" shit - only sex allowed.

5. No emotional discussions (i.e. Where are we heading with this? Do you love me?) The
answer is no, so don't ask.

6. No plans made in advance - that is why you are called the "backup," unless you are from
out-of-town, then it's only a one-time advanced arrangement.

7. All gifts accepted - money is always good.

8. No baby talk - however, dirty talk is encouraged.

9. No asking for comparisons with former lovers - it's really none of your damn business.

10. No calling each other "friends with privileges" we are not friends, just sex buddies.

11. Calling out the wrong name during sex is OK - don't be offended.

12. No extra clothing - I don't want your ass leaving anything behind when you leave.

13. No falling asleep right after sex - it's over, so get your ass up, get dressed and go the
**** home.

14. Don't be offended if I don't ask if you enjoyed it - I don't care.

15. You cannot borrow my car for any reason.

16. If anyone asks who you are, the standard response will be: "My roommate's
girlfriend/boyfriend."

17. Doggie style is the preferred position - the reason is less eye contact the better.

19. No condoms, no ****ing. Carry your ass home.

20. Bring your own drink - I am not your liquor store.

21. No phone use, please - don't want anyone calling back looking for your ass.




* EXTRA TIP FOR SUCCESSFUL BOOTY CALLS:

The aforementioned rules may only be altered by the holder of the agreement. If the other party attempts to change or alter any terms of this Agreement, it will automatically
become null and void and you will then be removed from the BOOTY CALL LIST and deleted from phone memory and email list. In other words, you will be BLOCKED from all communications until your silly ass understands the rules.


Participating Party

Signature_______________________________________
Date: ________________

Participating Party

Signature_______________________________________
Date: ________________

Sunday, February 6, 2011

NFL Super Bowl XlV Championship: Green Bay Packers

Green Bay Packers won the NFL Super Bowl XlV Championship. My gut was so right and I knew they were going to win that bowl. I was so alone supporting this team and I knew I have haters on my back. haha.. At least, I got my cousin and some friends with me to support the Packers. This game gave me too much of heartache because Steelers were so close to win the Super Bowls but the Packers won't that to happen. They did a great job of winning this game even though Charles Woodson & Donald Driver was out of play due to shoulder injury. I was expecting that he will be back on the field to play Unfortunately no luck of that going to happen.  The Packers and including the Driver and Woodson were doing so good on the first half but the rest of the half, I am very much disappoint that the two of them never did return back on the field. If the two of them back on the field, THEY WOULD MURDER STEELERS WITH 40-25. I am sure that Woodson & Driver is super excited that his team won.  I really enjoy watching NFL Super Bowl XIV Championship: Green Bay vs Pittsburgh Steelers. Green Bay Packers keep NFC championship going strong and it will stay strong every year. Amazing Job, Packers.  For the Steelers & Steelers's fans, I am very much admire your history & tradition but tonight is Green Bay Packers' s night. Packers, Let it shine. The Packers deserve that beautiful trophy. Green Bay Packers won their fourth super bowls this year. They have not been in the Championship bowl since 1998. I hope I am correct.Correct me if I am wrong.
 I just love when Steelers fans quiet down on facebook because they were mad that they lost the championship & didn't even try their best to win tonight. Talking all that smack is not going to help them win the championship. I plead the fifth, I did some little smacking but I was in my humble mode for rest of the half. lolz. Oh well, They will be all right."Don't hate the players, hate the game." lolz. Steelers played a great game tonight. There is always next year.
The super bowl halftime was okay but it was so good to see USHER RAYMOND performer O.M.G on the field. We need more such as TREY SONGZ, and other. I know it will be hot. lolz. 
Commercials: I have absolutely no comment on this . All I can say they sucked big time. The Doritos commercials are working on my last nerve at the end and the snicker commercials was so funny when Rosie got hit by a log. Ouch, that hurts. . lolz. There is some commercials that I find very interesting and funny but other, suck as well. Do more game and less commercials. These commercials ain't make us laughing hard but I really enjoying the movie previews and some of the car commercials.
Congratulation to Green Bay Packers
Congratulation to Green Bay Packers

Bowl Time 2011

Super Bowl XLV: Pittsburgh Steelers vs. Green Bay Packers


 You know what today is:: SUPERBOWL TIME. Let's get this game started. I am looking forward to watch the biggest game of the year. I am not that excited to see this game unless my handsome babies playing. WHO DAT!!!!! New Orleans Saints will ALWAYS be my number one fan but I am sad that they didn't make to to the Super Bowls. Oh well, there is always next year.  lolz.I am just rooting for fun. I am supporting this team does not mean they will be my favorite team. No. I should be neutral  in this since I support both last January. So Anyway, I know I am gonna have a lot of haters on my back because I am rooting this team. You haters got my fans famous and keep it going. I know this team will definitely will win the Superbowl Championship of 2011. No question asked!!!! My gut is telling me so I keep my answer to myself. I might be wrong but I HOPE I am not. I will try my best to stay humble on facebook. lolz. I supported Steelers & Green Bays to win the Super Bowl so I know one of the teams will win the Super Bowl championship. I am not mention any name. lolz. I wish I could be with my boo to support this team. I will be his opponent and make him mad and stuff. lolz.



My facebook status:  

I am rooting that #Yellow&_ _ _ _ _ .#Yellow&_ _ _ _ _ .#Yellow&_ _ _ _ _. Im rocking that #Yellow&_ _ _ _ _ . I ain't rooting tha #Yellow&_ _ _ _ _ .#Yellow&_ _ _ _ _ .#Yellow&_ _ _ _ _ .I aint rocking that #Yellow&_ _ _ _ _ . Go _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _. #_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _Rocks!!!!   Can you figure which teams I am supporting? So Go figure...  


Kevin Hart statement: 

"Ladies today is "National Shut Da Fuck Up Day" I advise u all 2 leave ur man alone....fellas if ur smart u will lock her out of the house." - Kevin Hart.. 

Lmao.. lmao.. Ladies, you know it is so true but damn, he is so damn wrong for that. Let the guy have their last football season to watch & be there to support them. Be his opponent but don't talk tooooo much. lol. Women loves football as well. 


To Packers & Steelers, 
I wish you good luck.